3.10.2015

Cobwebs

I don't understand men.

It seems like all of a sudden they're crawling out of the shadows to "reconnect."

At least they're individuals I want to connect with!!

It's been fun being a "text buddy" with a friend I haven't seen in several years.  He's awesome and I'm really grateful I have had a chance to know him in my life!  I am glad I am someone that he feels comfortable texting out of the blue.

I had one reconnect through Facebook.  This one I find curious, and wonder what the reconnection is about.  This one is why I don't understand men.  He stopped calling me for no apparent reason... and suddenly is back!  I really liked him - I even told him so - and after the trauma that happened in 2013, it was nice to find and have this person.  Until he disappeared.  Why is he back?  What does it mean?  I don't know.  I wish I did.  But I have missed him, and I'm glad he sought me out.

I had another connect with me through LinkdIn.  This one surprised me, but I was honored he wanted to "connect."  He was one of the pieces I lost in the crap with ex-bestie.  He was supposed to be in my family, and I have missed him!  I am grateful to know he still thinks of me - enough that he found me and made the effort to make the connection.

I think that's really what I find both interesting, and humbling.  I don't think of myself as someone people remember.  I'm not memorable.  And so it shocks me when people think about me.  I wonder what this is.  I wonder what happened in my life - what event occurred - that made me think that way of myself.  I wish I knew.  It would be nice to have someone remember me - someone who isn't already related.  It would be nice to mean something to someone daily.  In the meantime, I'm so honored to be remembered by these three men.

I just wish I understood why!